Gadhada II 33

Niṣhkāmī Vartamānnu

Samvat 1880nā Shrāvaṇ vadi 13 Terasne divas Swāmī Shrī Sahajānandjī Mahārāj Shrī Gaḍhaḍā madhye Dādā Khācharnā darabārmā potāne utāre ḍholiyā upar gādītakiyā nankhāvīne virājmān hatā ne sarva shvet vastra dhāraṇ karyā hatā ane potānā mukhārvindnī āgaḷ Muni tathā desh-deshnā haribhaktanī sabhā bharāīne beṭhī hatī.

Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj sarve sant tathā sarve haribhakta pratye em bolatā havā je, “Pratham ame amārā angnī vāt kahīe. Pachhī tame sarve pot-potāno je rīte mokṣh mānyo hoy tathā, ‘Ame āvī rīte vartashu to ā lokmā ne parlokmā Bhagwān amārī upar rājī raheshe,’ em je mānyu hoy te kahejyo.” Em sarvene kahīne pachhī Shrījī Mahārāje potānā angnī vāt kahevā mānḍī je, “Amane to je padārthmā het jaṇāy to teno tyāg karīe tyāre sukh thāy ane Bhagwānnā bhakta vinā je manuṣhyamātra athavā padārthmātra tenī jo manmā smṛuti thaī hoy to tethī atishay chheṭu karīe tyāre sukh thāy. Ane jo Bhagwānnā bhakta hoy to teno koī rīte karīne haiyāmā abhāv āve ja nahī. Ane amāre vagar ichchhe paṇ panch-viṣhay chhe, te jorāvarīe āvīne prāpt thāy chhe to paṇ tene ame ichchhatā nathī ane page karīne ṭhelī nākhīe chhīe. Ane je divas thakī ame janmyā chhīe te divasthī karīne āj divas paryant koī divas jāgratmā athavā swapnamā dravyano ke strīno bhūnḍo ghāṭ thayo hoy to ā samagra Paramhansanā sam chhe. Ane evī rīte ame sadāy nirdoṣhpaṇe chhīe. Ne je amāre viṣhe doṣhbuddhi karashe to tene jāgratmā tathā swapnamā bhūnḍo ghāṭ thashe ne tene deh mūkyā same bahu kaṣhṭa thashe. Ane amārā antarmā to ek Bhagwānnā swarūpnu ja chintavan rahe chhe. Ane uparthī to Bhagwānnā bhakta hoy tenā jīvnu sāru thāy te sāru haḷīmaḷīne rahīe chhīe. Ane je divas amārā haiyāmā Bhagwān ne Bhagwānnā bhakta vinā bīje kyāy het jaṇāshe to ame em mānīshu je, ‘Ame amārī sthitimāthī ḍagyā.’ Paṇ amane evo nishchay chhe je, ‘Ame e sthitimāthī ḍagīe ja nahī.’ E ame amāru ang hatu te kahyu. Have tame sau pot-potānu ang hoy te kaho.” Pachhī sarve sant tathā sarve haribhakte jevā jenā ang hatā tevā kahyā je, ā lokne viṣhe ne parlokne viṣhe āvī rītnā angmā ame rahīe to amārā upar Bhagwān rājī rahe; evī rīte kahyu. Te sarve haribhaktanā angnī vikti je, koṇek to Bhagwān vinā bīje ṭhekāṇe vairāgyanu kahyu ane koṇek ātmaniṣhṭhānu kahyu ne koṇek Bhagwānne viṣhe prītinu kahyu ne koṇek dharmamā rahevānu kahyu, evī rīte bahu prakāre kahyu paṇ Shrījī Mahārāje manmā je dhārī rākhyu hatu te koīe na kahyu.

Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Ek niṣhkāmī vartamān draḍh hoy to tene ā lokmā tathā parlokmā koī ṭhekāṇe Bhagwānthī chheṭu rahe nahī ane amāre paṇ te uparthī koī divas het ochhu thāy nahī. Ane ame ahīyā ṭakyā chhīe te paṇ ahīyānā haribhaktane ati niṣhkāmī vartamānno draḍhāv dekhīne ṭakyā chhīe. Ane jene niṣhkāmī vartamān draḍh hoy to te thakī ame hajār gāu chheṭe jaīe to paṇ tenī pāse ja chhīe; ane jene te niṣhkāmī vartamānmā kāchyap chhe ne te jo amārī pāse rahe chhe toy paṇ te lākh gāu chheṭe chhe. Ane amane niṣhkāmī bhakta hoy tenā ja hāthnī karī sevā game chhe. Māṭe ā Mūḷjī Brahmachārī chhe te atishay draḍh niṣhkāmī chhe, to amane enī karelī sevā atishay game chhe ane bījo koī sevā-chākarī kare to te evī gamatī nathī. Ane ame je je vārtā karīe chhīe tene viṣhe paṇ niṣhkāmī vartamānnu ja atishay pratipādan thāy chhe. Ane ame je divasthī prakaṭ thayā chhīe te divas thakī niṣhkāmī vartamānne ja atishay draḍh karatā āvīe chhīe. Ane sabhā beṭhī hoy tyā koīk strī athavā puruṣh tene joyāmā fer paḍe tyāre e game teṭalī yukti karīne santāḍe to paṇ amane jaṇāyā vinā rahe ja nahī, tyāre amāro te manuṣhya upar atishay kurājīpo thaī jāy chhe ane amāru mukh paṇ shyāmaḷu thaī jāy chhe ane tenu dukh to atishay lāge chhe paṇ mahobat jāṇīne zāzu kahevāy nahī. Ane vaḷī sādhudāvo chhe māṭe haiyāmā samajī rahīe chhīe, paṇ jo rājānā jevī rīt hoy to tene māthe zāzo danḍ thāy. Māṭe sarva moṭā Paramhansa tathā moṭī moṭī bāīo tene ame morthī ja kahī rākhyu chhe je, ‘Satsangmā koī puruṣhne tathā koī strīne kadāchit jo niṣhkāmī vartamānmā fer paḍe to amane sambhaḷāvasho mā.’ Shā māṭe je, jyāre ame evī vārtā sāmbhaḷīe tyāre jem vānziyāne gher dīkaro āvyo hoy ne te marī jāy ne tene jevo shok thāy tevo amāre paṇ shok thāy chhe; tathā manmā em vichār thaī jāy chhe je, ‘Badhā satsangne mūkīne jatā rahīe.’ Māṭe je niṣhkāmī vartamān rākhe te ja amane vahālo chhe ane tene ne amāre ā lok, parlokmā draḍh meḷāp rahe chhe.”

Pachhī Harajī Ṭhakkare prashna pūchhyo je, “E niṣhkāmī vartamān she upāye karīne atishay draḍh thāy?” Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Eno ek prakārno upāy nathī, enā to traṇ prakārnā upāy chhe. Jem hānknāro, baḷadhiyā, paiḍā, dhūsarī, ūdhya, mānchaḍo evā ghaṇāk sāmāne karīne ek gāḍu kahevāy chhe, tem niṣhkāmī vrat draḍh rākhavānī paṇ ghaṇīk sāmagrī joīe chhīe. Temā paṇ traṇ upāy chhe te to atishay mukhya chhe. Temā ek to manne vash karavu je, manne viṣhe akhanḍ evu manan karavu je, ‘Hu ātmā chhu, deh nathī;’ ne Bhagwānnī kathā-shravaṇādik je navadhā bhakti tene viṣhe manne akhanḍ joḍī melavu paṇ kṣhaṇmātra manne navaru rahevā devu nahī. Jem koīk puruṣhne bhūt vash thayo hato te jyāre kām na batāve tyāre tene khāvā taiyār thāy; tem ā man chhe te paṇ bhūt jevu chhe, te jyāre Bhagwad-bhaktimā na rākhe tyāre adharmanā ghāṭ ghaḍe, tyāre e bhūtnī peṭhe jīvne khāvā taiyār thayu kahevāy. Māṭe manne akhanḍ Bhagwānnī kathā-kīrtanādikmā joḍī rākhavu, eṭale e man vash thayu kahevāy. Ane bījo upāy e chhe je, prāṇne niyammā rākhavo. Te jem Bhagwāne Gītāmā kahyu chhe je, ‘Āhār-vihār yukta rākhavo paṇ atishay khādhānī lolupatā na rākhavī.’ Evī rīte varte tyāre prāṇ niyammā thayo kahevāy. Ane prāṇ niyammā na karyo hoy to khādhānī bahu manmā tṛuṣhṇā rahe, pachhī anant prakārnā je ras tene viṣhe rasnā indriya chhe te doḍatī fare tyāre bījī indriyo vash karī hoy te paṇ sarve mokaḷī thaī jāy; māṭe āhārne niyammā rākhīne prāṇne niyammā karavo. Ane trījo upāy e chhe je, ā satsangne viṣhe jene jene je je niyam kahyā chhe temā dehne rākhīne dehne niyammā karavo. Evī rīte traṇ upāyane je draḍh rākhe tene niṣhkāmī vartamān atishay draḍh thāy chhe. Ane ene viṣhe em na jāṇavu je, ‘Evī rīte rākhavu ghaṇu kaṭhaṇ chhe.’ Kem je, je sādhu ja hoy tene to em rākhavu kāī kaṭhaṇ chhe nahī. Ane sādhu hoy te to kām, krodh, lobhādik shatrunu baḷ hoy to paṇ Bhagwānne rājī karyā sāru teno tyāg kare tyāre ja e pāko sādhu kahevāy. Ane manuṣhya dehe karīne na thāy evu shu chhe? Je nitye abhyās rākhīne kare te thāy chhe. Jem kūvānā kānṭhā upar mahākaṭhaṇ patharo hoy chhe tene viṣhe nitye pāṇīne sinchavu teṇe karīne naram doraḍī chhe te paṇ kāpā pāḍe chhe; tem je sādhu ja chhe ne te je swabhāvane ṭāḷavāno nitya abhyās rākhashe to te swabhāv kyā lagī raheshe? E to nishchay nāsh pāmashe. Māṭe jene niṣhkāmvrat rākhavu hoy tene kahyā evā je traṇ upāy te draḍh karīne rākhavā.”

Samvat 1880na Shravan vadi 13 Terasne divas Swami Shri Sahajanandji Maharaj Shri Gadhada madhye Dada Khacharna darabarma potane utare dholiya upar gaditakiya nankhavine virajman hata ne sarva shvet vastra dharan karya hata ane potana mukharvindni agal Muni tatha desh-deshna haribhaktani sabha bharaine bethi hati.

Pachhi Shriji Maharaj sarve sant tatha sarve haribhakta pratye em bolata hava je, “Pratham ame amara angni vat kahie. Pachhi tame sarve pot-potano je rite moksh manyo hoy tatha, ‘Ame avi rite vartashu to a lokma ne parlokma Bhagwan amari upar raji raheshe,’ em je manyu hoy te kahejyo.” Em sarvene kahine pachhi Shriji Maharaje potana angni vat kaheva mandi je, “Amane to je padarthma het janay to teno tyag karie tyare sukh thay ane Bhagwanna bhakta vina je manushyamatra athava padarthmatra teni jo manma smruti thai hoy to tethi atishay chhetu karie tyare sukh thay. Ane jo Bhagwanna bhakta hoy to teno koi rite karine haiyama abhav ave ja nahi. Ane amare vagar ichchhe pan panch-vishay chhe, te joravarie avine prapt thay chhe to pan tene ame ichchhata nathi ane page karine theli nakhie chhie. Ane je divas thaki ame janmya chhie te divasthi karine aj divas paryant koi divas jagratma athava swapnama dravyano ke strino bhundo ghat thayo hoy to a samagra Paramhansana sam chhe. Ane evi rite ame saday nirdoshpane chhie. Ne je amare vishe doshbuddhi karashe to tene jagratma tatha swapnama bhundo ghat thashe ne tene deh mukya same bahu kashta thashe. Ane amara antarma to ek Bhagwanna swarupnu ja chintavan rahe chhe. Ane uparthi to Bhagwanna bhakta hoy tena jivnu saru thay te saru halimaline rahie chhie. Ane je divas amara haiyama Bhagwan ne Bhagwanna bhakta vina bije kyay het janashe to ame em manishu je, ‘Ame amari sthitimathi dagya.’ Pan amane evo nishchay chhe je, ‘Ame e sthitimathi dagie ja nahi.’ E ame amaru ang hatu te kahyu. Have tame sau pot-potanu ang hoy te kaho.” Pachhi sarve sant tatha sarve haribhakte jeva jena ang hata teva kahya je, a lokne vishe ne parlokne vishe avi ritna angma ame rahie to amara upar Bhagwan raji rahe; evi rite kahyu. Te sarve haribhaktana angni vikti je, konek to Bhagwan vina bije thekane vairagyanu kahyu ane konek atmanishthanu kahyu ne konek Bhagwanne vishe pritinu kahyu ne konek dharmama rahevanu kahyu, evi rite bahu prakare kahyu pan Shriji Maharaje manma je dhari rakhyu hatu te koie na kahyu.

Pachhi Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Ek nishkami vartaman dradh hoy to tene a lokma tatha parlokma koi thekane Bhagwanthi chhetu rahe nahi ane amare pan te uparthi koi divas het ochhu thay nahi. Ane ame ahiya takya chhie te pan ahiyana haribhaktane ati nishkami vartamanno dradhav dekhine takya chhie. Ane jene nishkami vartaman dradh hoy to te thaki ame hajar gau chhete jaie to pan teni pase ja chhie; ane jene te nishkami vartamanma kachyap chhe ne te jo amari pase rahe chhe toy pan te lakh gau chhete chhe. Ane amane nishkami bhakta hoy tena ja hathni kari seva game chhe. Mate a Mulji Brahmachari chhe te atishay dradh nishkami chhe, to amane eni kareli seva atishay game chhe ane bijo koi seva-chakari kare to te evi gamati nathi. Ane ame je je varta karie chhie tene vishe pan nishkami vartamannu ja atishay pratipadan thay chhe. Ane ame je divasthi prakat thaya chhie te divas thaki nishkami vartamanne ja atishay dradh karata avie chhie. Ane sabha bethi hoy tya koik stri athava purush tene joyama fer pade tyare e game tetali yukti karine santade to pan amane janaya vina rahe ja nahi, tyare amaro te manushya upar atishay kurajipo thai jay chhe ane amaru mukh pan shyamalu thai jay chhe ane tenu dukh to atishay lage chhe pan mahobat janine zazu kahevay nahi. Ane vali sadhudavo chhe mate haiyama samaji rahie chhie, pan jo rajana jevi rit hoy to tene mathe zazo dand thay. Mate sarva mota Paramhansa tatha moti moti baio tene ame morthi ja kahi rakhyu chhe je, ‘Satsangma koi purushne tatha koi strine kadachit jo nishkami vartamanma fer pade to amane sambhalavasho ma.’ Sha mate je, jyare ame evi varta sambhalie tyare jem vanziyane gher dikaro avyo hoy ne te mari jay ne tene jevo shok thay tevo amare pan shok thay chhe; tatha manma em vichar thai jay chhe je, ‘Badha satsangne mukine jata rahie.’ Mate je nishkami vartaman rakhe te ja amane vahalo chhe ane tene ne amare a lok, parlokma dradh melap rahe chhe.”

Pachhi Haraji Thakkare prashna puchhyo je, “E nishkami vartaman she upaye karine atishay dradh thay?” Pachhi Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Eno ek prakarno upay nathi, ena to tran prakarna upay chhe. Jem hanknaro, baladhiya, paida, dhusari, udhya, manchado eva ghanak samane karine ek gadu kahevay chhe, tem nishkami vrat dradh rakhavani pan ghanik samagri joie chhie. Tema pan tran upay chhe te to atishay mukhya chhe. Tema ek to manne vash karavu je, manne vishe akhand evu manan karavu je, ‘Hu atma chhu, deh nathi;’ ne Bhagwanni katha-shravanadik je navadha bhakti tene vishe manne akhand jodi melavu pan kshanmatra manne navaru raheva devu nahi. Jem koik purushne bhut vash thayo hato te jyare kam na batave tyare tene khava taiyar thay; tem a man chhe te pan bhut jevu chhe, te jyare Bhagwad-bhaktima na rakhe tyare adharmana ghat ghade, tyare e bhutni pethe jivne khava taiyar thayu kahevay. Mate manne akhand Bhagwanni katha-kirtanadikma jodi rakhavu, etale e man vash thayu kahevay. Ane bijo upay e chhe je, pranne niyamma rakhavo. Te jem Bhagwane Gitama kahyu chhe je, ‘Ahar-vihar yukta rakhavo pan atishay khadhani lolupata na rakhavi.’ Evi rite varte tyare pran niyamma thayo kahevay. Ane pran niyamma na karyo hoy to khadhani bahu manma trushna rahe, pachhi anant prakarna je ras tene vishe rasna indriya chhe te dodati fare tyare biji indriyo vash kari hoy te pan sarve mokali thai jay; mate aharne niyamma rakhine pranne niyamma karavo. Ane trijo upay e chhe je, a satsangne vishe jene jene je je niyam kahya chhe tema dehne rakhine dehne niyamma karavo. Evi rite tran upayane je dradh rakhe tene nishkami vartaman atishay dradh thay chhe. Ane ene vishe em na janavu je, ‘Evi rite rakhavu ghanu kathan chhe.’ Kem je, je sadhu ja hoy tene to em rakhavu kai kathan chhe nahi. Ane sadhu hoy te to kam, krodh, lobhadik shatrunu bal hoy to pan Bhagwanne raji karya saru teno tyag kare tyare ja e pako sadhu kahevay. Ane manushya dehe karine na thay evu shu chhe? Je nitye abhyas rakhine kare te thay chhe. Jem kuvana kantha upar mahakathan patharo hoy chhe tene vishe nitye panine sinchavu tene karine naram doradi chhe te pan kapa pade chhe; tem je sadhu ja chhe ne te je swabhavane talavano nitya abhyas rakhashe to te swabhav kya lagi raheshe? E to nishchay nash pamashe. Mate jene nishkamvrat rakhavu hoy tene kahya eva je tran upay te dradh karine rakhava.”