Gadhada I 18

Viṣhay-khanḍannu, Havelīnu

Samvat 1876nā Māgshar vadi 6 Chhaṭhane divas rātri pāchhalī pahor bākī hatī tyāre Swāmī Shrī Sahajānandjī Mahārāj Shrī Gaḍhaḍā madhye Dādā Khācharnā darabārmā āthamṇe bāraṇe oraḍānī osarīne āgaḷ faḷiyāmā ḍholiyā upar virājyā hatā ane sarva shvet vastra dhāraṇ karyā hatā.

Pachhī Paramhansa tathā satsangīne teḍāvyā ne ghaṇīvār sudhī to pote vichārī rahyā ane pachhī bolyā je, “Ek vāt kahu te sāmbhaḷo.” Em kahīne Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Mārā manmā to em thāy chhe je vāt na kahu, paṇ tame amārā chho māṭe jāṇīe chhīe je kahīe ja. Ane ā vāt chhe tene samajīne te ja pramāṇe varte te ja mukta thāy chhe ane te vinā to Chār Ved, ṣhaṭ Shāstra,⁸⁰ Aḍhār Purāṇ⁸¹ ane Bhāratādik Itihās⁸² tene bhaṇave karīne tathā tenā arthane jāṇave karīne athavā tene shravaṇe karīne paṇ mukta thāy nahī. Te vāt kahīe te sāmbhaḷo je, bahār to game teṭalī upādhi⁸³ hoy paṇ teno jo manmā sankalp na hoy to teno amāre kharkharo nahī ane antarmā jo ranch jeṭalo padārthno ghāṭ thāy to teno tyāg karīe tyāre nirānt thāy evo amāro swabhāv chhe. Māṭe ame hṛudayamā vichār karyo je, ‘Bhagwānnā bhaktanā hṛudayamā vikṣhep⁸⁴ thāy chhe tenu kāraṇ te shu chhe?’ Pachhī man, buddhi, chitta, ahankār sāmu joyu tyā to e antahkaraṇ paṇ udvegnu kāraṇ nathī. Antahkaraṇmā to Bhagwānnā swarūpnā nishchaynu baḷ athavā ātmagnānnu baḷ tene yoge karīne antahkaraṇne gāfaltā rahe chhe je, ‘Bhagwān maḷyā chhe te have kāī karavu rahyu nathī,’ evu gāfalpaṇu rahe chhe eṭalo ja antahkaraṇno vānk chhe. Ane zāzo vānk to panch gnān-indriyono chhe. Tenī vigati kahīe chhīe je, e jīv je nānā prakārnā bhojan jame chhe te bhojan-bhojan pratye judā judā svād chhe ane judā judā guṇ⁸⁵ chhe. Te bhojanne jyāre jame chhe tyāre te guṇ antahkaraṇmā tathā sharīrmā pravarte chhe. Ane jo līlāgar bhāngya⁸⁶ pīe ane te Prabhuno bhakta hoy toy paṇ līlāgar bhāngyane kefe karīne vartamānnī khabar rahe nahī ane Prabhunā bhajannī paṇ khabar rahe nahī; tem anant prakārnā je āhār tenā guṇ paṇ līlāgar bhāngyanī peṭhe ja anant prakārnā chhe, teno gaṇatā paṇ pār āve nahī. Tem ja e jīv shrotra dvāre anant prakārnā shabdane sāmbhaḷe chhe, te shabdanā paṇ anant prakārnā guṇ judā judā chhe, te jevo shabda sāmbhaḷe chhe tevo ja antahkaraṇmā guṇ pravarte chhe; jem koīk hatyāro jīv hoy athavā koīk puruṣh vyabhichārī hoy athavā koīk strī vyabhichāriṇī hoy athavā lok ane Vednī maryādāne lopīne vartato evo koīk bhraṣhṭ jīv hoy temanī je vāt sāmbhaḷavī te to jevī līlāgar bhāngya pīe athavā dārū pīe evī chhe; māṭe te vātnā sāmbhaḷnārānā antahkaraṇne bhraṣhṭ karī nākhe chhe ane Bhagwānnu bhajan, smaraṇ tathā vartamān tenī vismṛuti karāvī nākhe chhe. Tem ja tvachānā sparsh paṇ anant prakārnā chhe ane tenā guṇ paṇ judā judā anant prakārnā chhe; temā pāpī jīvno je sparsh te ja bhāngya-dārūnā jevo chhe, māṭe te sparshno karanāro haribhakta hoy tenī paṇ shūdh-būdhane bhulāḍī de chhe. Tem ja rūp paṇ anant prakārnā chhe ane tenā guṇ paṇ anant prakārnā judā judā chhe; te koīk bhraṣhṭ jīv hoy ne jo tenu darshan thayu hoy to jem līlāgar bhāngya tathā dārū pīdhe bhūnḍu thāy chhe tem ja te pāpīnā darshannā karanārānu paṇ bhūnḍu ja thāy ane buddhi bhraṣhṭ thaī jāy chhe. Tem ja gandh paṇ anant prakārnā chhe ane tenā guṇ paṇ anant prakārnā chhe; te jo pāpī jīvnā hāthnu puṣhp athavā chandan tenī jo sugandhī le to jem līlāgar pīdhe buddhi bhraṣhṭ thāy tem ja buddhi bhraṣhṭ thāy chhe. Evī rīte jem bhūnḍāne yoge karīne jīvnī buddhi bhraṣhṭ thāy chhe tem ja Parameshvar athavā Parameshvarnā sant tene yoge karīne jīvnī buddhi sārī thāy chhe. Ane jīvnī buddhi bhraṣhṭ hoy to paṇ Bhagwān ane santnā shabdane sāmbhaḷave karīne uttam thāy chhe; tem ja emane sparshe karīne paṇ mati uttam thāy chhe, ane vartamānnī āḍye karīne moṭā santno sparsh na thāy to tenā charaṇnī raj laīne māthe chaḍāve teṇe karīne pavitra thāy; ane tem ja moṭā santne darshane karīne paṇ pavitra thāy, paṇ vartamān rākhīne darshan karavā; tem ja te moṭānī prasādī chhe tene jamave karīne paṇ pavitra thāy chhe, temā paṇ varṇāshramnī maryādā Parameshvare bāndhī chhe te maryādāne rākhīne prasādī levī ane jene na khape tene sākarnī prasādī karāvīne prasādī levī; tem ja te Moṭā Puruṣhne chaḍhyu evu je puṣhp, chandan tenī sugandhī līdhe paṇ buddhi nirmaḷ thāy chhe. Te māṭe e panch-viṣhayne samajyā vinā je bhogavashe ane sār-asārno vibhāg nahī kare ane te Nārad-Sanakādik jevo hashe tenī paṇ buddhi bhraṣhṭ thaī jashe, to je dehābhimānī hoy ane tenī buddhi bhraṣhṭ thāy temā shu kahevu? Te sāru e panch indriyone yogya-ayogya vichāryā vinā je mokaḷī melashe tenu antahkaraṇ bhraṣhṭ thaī jashe. Ane panch indriyo dvāre jīv je āhār kare chhe te āhār jo shuddha karashe to antahkaraṇ shuddha thāshe, ane antahkaraṇ shuddha thāshe to akhanḍ Bhagwānnī smṛuti raheshe. Ane jo panch indriyonā āhārmāthī ek indriyano āhār malin thāy chhe to antahkaraṇ paṇ malin thaī jāy chhe. Māṭe Bhagwānnā bhaktane Bhagwānnā bhajanne viṣhe je koī vikṣhep thaī āve chhe tenu kāraṇ to panch indriyonā viṣhay ja chhe paṇ antahkaraṇ nathī.

“Ane ā jīv chhe te jevī sobat kare chhe tevu enu antahkaraṇ thāy chhe; te jyāre e jīv viṣhayī jīvnī sabhāmā beṭho hoy ane te jagyā paṇ sundar sāt māḷnī havelī hoy, te havelīne viṣhe kāchnā takatā sundar jaḍyā hoy ane sundar bichhānā karyā hoy, temā nānā prakārnā ābhūṣhaṇ tathā vastrane paherīne viṣhayī jan beṭhā hoy ane dārūnā shīshā laīne paraspar pātā hoy ane keṭalāk to dārūnā shīshā bharelā paḍyā hoy ane veshyāo theī-theīkār karī rahī hoy ane nānā prakārnā vājintra vājatā hoy, te sabhāmā jaīne je jan⁸⁷ bese te same tenu antahkaraṇ⁸⁸ bījī jātnu⁸⁹ thaī jāy chhe. Ane tṛuṇnī zūpaḍī hoy ne temā fāṭel godaḍīvāḷā paramhansnī sabhā beṭhī hoy ane dharma, gnān, vairāgya, ne bhakti sahvartamān bhagwadvārtā thātī hoy, te sabhāmā jaīne je jan⁹⁰ bese tyāre te same tenu antahkaraṇ⁹¹ bījī rītnu⁹² thāy chhe. Māṭe satsang ane kusangne yoge karīne jevu antahkaraṇ thāy chhe tene jo vichārīne jue to jāṇyāmā āve chhe ane gabarganḍne to kāī khabar paḍatī nathī. Māṭe ā vārtā chhe te chhek mūrkhapaṇe pashune pāḍe vartato hoy tene to na samajāy ane je kāīk vivekī hoy ane kāīk Bhagwānno āshrit hoy tene to ā vārtā turat samajyāmā āve chhe; māṭe paramhansa tathā sānkhyayogī harijan tathā karmayogī harijan e sarvene kupātra māṇasnī sangat karavī nahī. Ane satsang mor to game tevo kupātra jīv hoy toy tene niyam dharāvīne satsangmā levo, paṇ satsangmā āvyā pachhī kupātrapaṇu rākhe to bāī athavā bhāī je hoy tene satsang bahār kāḍhī melavo ane jo na kāḍhe to emāthī zāzu bhūnḍu thāy. Jem, je āngaḷīne sarpe karaḍī hoy athavā kīḍiyārāno rog⁹³ thayo hoy ane teṭalu ang jo turat kāpī nākhe to panḍe kushaḷ rahe; teno lobh kare to zāzo bigāḍ thāy. Tem je kupātra jīv jaṇāy teno tatkāḷ tyāg karajyo; ane ā amāru vachan chhe te bhalā thaīne sarve jarūr rākhajyo, to jāṇīe tame amārī sarva sevā karī. Ane ame paṇ tamane sarvene āshīrvād daīshu ane tamo upar ghaṇā prasanna thaīshu, kā je, tame amāro dākhaḍo sufaḷ karyo. Ane Bhagwānnu dhām chhe tyā āpaṇ sarve bheḷā rahīshu. Ane jo em nahī raho to tamāre ane amāre ghaṇu chheṭu thaī jāshe ane bhūtnu ke brahma-rākṣhasnu deh āvashe ane herān thāsho. Ane je kāī Bhagwānnī bhakti karī hashe tenu faḷ to razaḷtā razaḷtā koīk kāḷe pragaṭ thāshe, tyāre paṇ ame vāt karī te pramāṇe rahesho tyār pachhī mukta thaīne Bhagwānnā dhāmmā jāsho.

“Ane jo koī amāro vād lesho to tenu to jarūr bhūnḍu thāshe; kā je. Amārā hṛudayamā to Narnārāyaṇ pragaṭ virāje chhe⁹⁴ ane hu to anādi mukta⁹⁵ ja chhu paṇ koīne updeshe karīne mukta nathī thayo. Ane man, buddhi, chitta ane ahankār temane to hu pakaḍī lau chhu; jem sinha bakarāne pakaḍe chhe tenī peṭhe e antahkaraṇne hu pakaḍu chhu ane bījāne to e antahkaraṇ dekhyāmā paṇ āvatu nathī. Māṭe amāro vād laīne jāṇe je upādhimā⁹⁶ rahīne shuddhapaṇe rahīshu, te to Nārad-Sanakādik jevo hoy tethī paṇ rahevāy nahī to bījānī shī vārtā kahevī? Ane anant mukta thaī gayā ne anant thashe, temā upādhimā rahīne nirlep rahe evo koī thayo nathī ne thashe paṇ nahī ane hamaṇā paṇ koīe nathī ane koṭi kalpe sudhī sādhan karīne paṇ evo thavāne koī samarth nathī. Māṭe ame kahyu chhe te pramāṇe rahesho to rūḍu thashe. Ane ame je koīne hete karīne bolāvīe chhīe te to tenā jīvnā rūḍā sāru bolāvīe chhīe athavā koīne hete karīne sāmu joīe chhīe athavā koī sārā bhojan karāve chhe tene jamīe chhīe athavā koī ḍholīyo bichhāvī de chhe te upar besīe chhīe athavā koī vastra-ābhūṣhaṇ tathā puṣhpanā hār ityādik je je padārth lāve chhe tene angīkār karīe chhīe te to tenā jīvnā rūḍā vāste angīkār karīe chhīe paṇ amārā sukhne vāste karatā nathī; ane jo amārā sukhne vāste karatā hoīe to amane Shrī Rāmānand Swāmīnā sam chhe. Māṭe evu vichārīne koī amāro vād karasho mā, ane panch indriyonā āhār chhe tene atishay shuddhapaṇe karīne rākhajyo, e vachan amāru jarūrājarūr mānajyo. Ane ā vāt to sarvane samajāy evī sugam chhe māṭe sarvanā samajyāmā turat āvī jashe, te sāru satsangmā atishay pravartāvajyo; temā amāro ghaṇo rājīpo chhe.” Em vārtā karīne ‘Jay Sachchidānand’ kahīne Shrījī Mahārāj potānā utārāmā padhāratā havā.

Samvat 1876na Magshar vadi 6 Chhathane divas ratri pachhali pahor baki hati tyare Swami Shri Sahajanandji Maharaj Shri Gadhada madhye Dada Khacharna darabarma athamne barane oradani osarine agal faliyama dholiya upar virajya hata ane sarva shvet vastra dharan karya hata.

Pachhi Paramhansa tatha satsangine tedavya ne ghanivar sudhi to pote vichari rahya ane pachhi bolya je, “Ek vat kahu te sambhalo.” Em kahine Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Mara manma to em thay chhe je vat na kahu, pan tame amara chho mate janie chhie je kahie ja. Ane a vat chhe tene samajine te ja pramane varte te ja mukta thay chhe ane te vina to Char Ved, shat Shastra,⁸⁰ Adhar Puran⁸¹ ane Bharatadik Itihas⁸² tene bhanave karine tatha tena arthane janave karine athava tene shravane karine pan mukta thay nahi. Te vat kahie te sambhalo je, bahar to game tetali upadhi⁸³ hoy pan teno jo manma sankalp na hoy to teno amare kharkharo nahi ane antarma jo ranch jetalo padarthno ghat thay to teno tyag karie tyare nirant thay evo amaro swabhav chhe. Mate ame hrudayama vichar karyo je, ‘Bhagwanna bhaktana hrudayama vikshep⁸⁴ thay chhe tenu karan te shu chhe?’ Pachhi man, buddhi, chitta, ahankar samu joyu tya to e antahkaran pan udvegnu karan nathi. Antahkaranma to Bhagwanna swarupna nishchaynu bal athava atmagnannu bal tene yoge karine antahkaranne gafalta rahe chhe je, ‘Bhagwan malya chhe te have kai karavu rahyu nathi,’ evu gafalpanu rahe chhe etalo ja antahkaranno vank chhe. Ane zazo vank to panch gnan-indriyono chhe. Teni vigati kahie chhie je, e jiv je nana prakarna bhojan jame chhe te bhojan-bhojan pratye juda juda svad chhe ane juda juda gun⁸⁵ chhe. Te bhojanne jyare jame chhe tyare te gun antahkaranma tatha sharirma pravarte chhe. Ane jo lilagar bhangya⁸⁶ pie ane te Prabhuno bhakta hoy toy pan lilagar bhangyane kefe karine vartamanni khabar rahe nahi ane Prabhuna bhajanni pan khabar rahe nahi; tem anant prakarna je ahar tena gun pan lilagar bhangyani pethe ja anant prakarna chhe, teno ganata pan par ave nahi. Tem ja e jiv shrotra dvare anant prakarna shabdane sambhale chhe, te shabdana pan anant prakarna gun juda juda chhe, te jevo shabda sambhale chhe tevo ja antahkaranma gun pravarte chhe; jem koik hatyaro jiv hoy athava koik purush vyabhichari hoy athava koik stri vyabhicharini hoy athava lok ane Vedni maryadane lopine vartato evo koik bhrasht jiv hoy temani je vat sambhalavi te to jevi lilagar bhangya pie athava daru pie evi chhe; mate te vatna sambhalnarana antahkaranne bhrasht kari nakhe chhe ane Bhagwannu bhajan, smaran tatha vartaman teni vismruti karavi nakhe chhe. Tem ja tvachana sparsh pan anant prakarna chhe ane tena gun pan juda juda anant prakarna chhe; tema papi jivno je sparsh te ja bhangya-daruna jevo chhe, mate te sparshno karanaro haribhakta hoy teni pan shudh-budhane bhuladi de chhe. Tem ja rup pan anant prakarna chhe ane tena gun pan anant prakarna juda juda chhe; te koik bhrasht jiv hoy ne jo tenu darshan thayu hoy to jem lilagar bhangya tatha daru pidhe bhundu thay chhe tem ja te papina darshanna karanaranu pan bhundu ja thay ane buddhi bhrasht thai jay chhe. Tem ja gandh pan anant prakarna chhe ane tena gun pan anant prakarna chhe; te jo papi jivna hathnu pushp athava chandan teni jo sugandhi le to jem lilagar pidhe buddhi bhrasht thay tem ja buddhi bhrasht thay chhe. Evi rite jem bhundane yoge karine jivni buddhi bhrasht thay chhe tem ja Parameshvar athava Parameshvarna sant tene yoge karine jivni buddhi sari thay chhe. Ane jivni buddhi bhrasht hoy to pan Bhagwan ane santna shabdane sambhalave karine uttam thay chhe; tem ja emane sparshe karine pan mati uttam thay chhe, ane vartamanni adye karine mota santno sparsh na thay to tena charanni raj laine mathe chadave tene karine pavitra thay; ane tem ja mota santne darshane karine pan pavitra thay, pan vartaman rakhine darshan karava; tem ja te motani prasadi chhe tene jamave karine pan pavitra thay chhe, tema pan varnashramni maryada Parameshvare bandhi chhe te maryadane rakhine prasadi levi ane jene na khape tene sakarni prasadi karavine prasadi levi; tem ja te Mota Purushne chadhyu evu je pushp, chandan teni sugandhi lidhe pan buddhi nirmal thay chhe. Te mate e panch-vishayne samajya vina je bhogavashe ane sar-asarno vibhag nahi kare ane te Narad-Sanakadik jevo hashe teni pan buddhi bhrasht thai jashe, to je dehabhimani hoy ane teni buddhi bhrasht thay tema shu kahevu? Te saru e panch indriyone yogya-ayogya vicharya vina je mokali melashe tenu antahkaran bhrasht thai jashe. Ane panch indriyo dvare jiv je ahar kare chhe te ahar jo shuddha karashe to antahkaran shuddha thashe, ane antahkaran shuddha thashe to akhand Bhagwanni smruti raheshe. Ane jo panch indriyona aharmathi ek indriyano ahar malin thay chhe to antahkaran pan malin thai jay chhe. Mate Bhagwanna bhaktane Bhagwanna bhajanne vishe je koi vikshep thai ave chhe tenu karan to panch indriyona vishay ja chhe pan antahkaran nathi.

“Ane a jiv chhe te jevi sobat kare chhe tevu enu antahkaran thay chhe; te jyare e jiv vishayi jivni sabhama betho hoy ane te jagya pan sundar sat malni haveli hoy, te haveline vishe kachna takata sundar jadya hoy ane sundar bichhana karya hoy, tema nana prakarna abhushan tatha vastrane paherine vishayi jan betha hoy ane daruna shisha laine paraspar pata hoy ane ketalak to daruna shisha bharela padya hoy ane veshyao thei-theikar kari rahi hoy ane nana prakarna vajintra vajata hoy, te sabhama jaine je jan⁸⁷ bese te same tenu antahkaran⁸⁸ biji jatnu⁸⁹ thai jay chhe. Ane trunni zupadi hoy ne tema fatel godadivala paramhansni sabha bethi hoy ane dharma, gnan, vairagya, ne bhakti sahvartaman bhagwadvarta thati hoy, te sabhama jaine je jan⁹⁰ bese tyare te same tenu antahkaran⁹¹ biji ritnu⁹² thay chhe. Mate satsang ane kusangne yoge karine jevu antahkaran thay chhe tene jo vicharine jue to janyama ave chhe ane gabargandne to kai khabar padati nathi. Mate a varta chhe te chhek murkhapane pashune pade vartato hoy tene to na samajay ane je kaik viveki hoy ane kaik Bhagwanno ashrit hoy tene to a varta turat samajyama ave chhe; mate paramhansa tatha sankhyayogi harijan tatha karmayogi harijan e sarvene kupatra manasni sangat karavi nahi. Ane satsang mor to game tevo kupatra jiv hoy toy tene niyam dharavine satsangma levo, pan satsangma avya pachhi kupatrapanu rakhe to bai athava bhai je hoy tene satsang bahar kadhi melavo ane jo na kadhe to emathi zazu bhundu thay. Jem, je angaline sarpe karadi hoy athava kidiyarano rog⁹³ thayo hoy ane tetalu ang jo turat kapi nakhe to pande kushal rahe; teno lobh kare to zazo bigad thay. Tem je kupatra jiv janay teno tatkal tyag karajyo; ane a amaru vachan chhe te bhala thaine sarve jarur rakhajyo, to janie tame amari sarva seva kari. Ane ame pan tamane sarvene ashirvad daishu ane tamo upar ghana prasanna thaishu, ka je, tame amaro dakhado sufal karyo. Ane Bhagwannu dham chhe tya apan sarve bhela rahishu. Ane jo em nahi raho to tamare ane amare ghanu chhetu thai jashe ane bhutnu ke brahma-rakshasnu deh avashe ane heran thasho. Ane je kai Bhagwanni bhakti kari hashe tenu fal to razalta razalta koik kale pragat thashe, tyare pan ame vat kari te pramane rahesho tyar pachhi mukta thaine Bhagwanna dhamma jasho.

“Ane jo koi amaro vad lesho to tenu to jarur bhundu thashe; ka je. Amara hrudayama to Narnarayan pragat viraje chhe⁹⁴ ane hu to anadi mukta⁹⁵ ja chhu pan koine updeshe karine mukta nathi thayo. Ane man, buddhi, chitta ane ahankar temane to hu pakadi lau chhu; jem sinha bakarane pakade chhe teni pethe e antahkaranne hu pakadu chhu ane bijane to e antahkaran dekhyama pan avatu nathi. Mate amaro vad laine jane je upadhima⁹⁶ rahine shuddhapane rahishu, te to Narad-Sanakadik jevo hoy tethi pan rahevay nahi to bijani shi varta kahevi? Ane anant mukta thai gaya ne anant thashe, tema upadhima rahine nirlep rahe evo koi thayo nathi ne thashe pan nahi ane hamana pan koie nathi ane koti kalpe sudhi sadhan karine pan evo thavane koi samarth nathi. Mate ame kahyu chhe te pramane rahesho to rudu thashe. Ane ame je koine hete karine bolavie chhie te to tena jivna ruda saru bolavie chhie athava koine hete karine samu joie chhie athava koi sara bhojan karave chhe tene jamie chhie athava koi dholiyo bichhavi de chhe te upar besie chhie athava koi vastra-abhushan tatha pushpana har ityadik je je padarth lave chhe tene angikar karie chhie te to tena jivna ruda vaste angikar karie chhie pan amara sukhne vaste karata nathi; ane jo amara sukhne vaste karata hoie to amane Shri Ramanand Swamina sam chhe. Mate evu vicharine koi amaro vad karasho ma, ane panch indriyona ahar chhe tene atishay shuddhapane karine rakhajyo, e vachan amaru jarurajarur manajyo. Ane a vat to sarvane samajay evi sugam chhe mate sarvana samajyama turat avi jashe, te saru satsangma atishay pravartavajyo; tema amaro ghano rajipo chhe.” Em varta karine ‘Jay Sachchidanand’ kahine Shriji Maharaj potana utarama padharata hava.

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