Gadhada II 55

Sonīnī Peḍhīnu

Samvat 1880nā Jyeṣhṭh sudi 11 Ekādashīne divas Swāmī Shrī Sahajānandjī Mahārāj Shrī Gaḍhaḍā madhye Dādā Khācharnā darabārmā ugamṇe dvār oraḍānī osarīe ḍholiyā upar virājmān hatā ane mastak upar Navānagarnu sonerī kore yukta shvet moḷiyu bāndhyu hatu ane shvet pachheḍī oḍhī hatī ane shvet khes paheryo hato ane Shrījī Mahārājnā mukhārvindnī āgaḷ Muni tathā desh-deshnā haribhaktanī sabhā bharāīne beṭhī hatī ane te sabhāne viṣhe Muni zānz-mṛudang laīne kīrtan gāvatā hatā.

Pachhī te Muni kīrtan-bhakti karī rahyā tyāre Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Jenu āj jevu ang hoy tevu satsang thayā more paṇ kāīk hoy kharu; te māṭe āj to sarve jenu jevu ang hoy te tevu kaho. Temā pratham to ame amāru jevu ang chhe tevī vārtā kahīe chhīe te sāmbhaḷo je, jyāre amāre bāḷ avasthā hatī tyāre paṇ dev-mandir hoy tyā darshane javu, kathā-vārtā sāmbhaḷavī, sādhuno samāgam karavo, tīrth karavā javu evī vārtā gamatī. Ane jyāre ghar mūkīne nīsaryā tyāre to vastra rākhavu paṇ gamatu nahī ane vanmā ja rahevu gamatu. Ane bīk to leshmātra lāgatī ja nahī ane vanne viṣhe moṭā moṭā sarp, sinha, hāthī ityādik anant janāvar dīṭhāmā āvyā paṇ koī prakāre haiyāmā maravānī to bīk ja lāgatī nahī; evī rīte mahāvanne viṣhe sadā nirbhay rahetā. Pachhī tīrthne viṣhe faratā faratā Shrī Rāmānand Swāmī pāse āvyā ane pachhī Shrī Rāmānand Swāmī jyāre antardhān thayā te keḍe satsangnu rūḍu thavāne arthe kāīk bīk rākhavā mānḍī. Paṇ antarmā akhanḍ vichār evo rahe chhe, jem manuṣhyane mūvāṭāṇe pathārī upar suvāryo hoy tyāre te manuṣhyamāthī sahune potānā svārthnī vāsanā ṭaḷī jāy chhe ane te maranārāne paṇ sansār thakī man udās thaī jāy chhe; temanu tem amāre potānī kornu ane bījānī kornu ant avasthā jevu sadā varte chhe. Ane jeṭalu māyik padārthmātra chhe te sarve nāshvant ne tuchchha sarakhu jaṇāyā kare chhe, paṇ em vikti nathī jaṇātī je, ‘Ā sāru padārth chhe ne ā bhūnḍu padārth chhe.’ Jeṭalā māyik padārthmātra chhe te to sarve eksarakhā jaṇāy chhe. Jem kākhanā muvāḷā chhe, temā sāro kyo ne naraso kyo? Te to sāro-naraso sahu ek pāḍmā chhe; tem māyik padārth paṇ sarve sarakhā chhe. Ane kāīk sāru-narasu je kahīe chhīe te to Bhagwānnā bhaktane sāru lagāḍavāne arthe kahīe chhīe je, ā sāru bhojan chhe, ā sāru vastra chhe, ā sāru ghareṇu chhe, ā sāru ghar chhe, ā sāru ghoḍu chhe, ā sārā puṣhpa chhe, te bhaktane sāru lāge te sāru kahīe chhīe. Ane amārī sarve kriyā chhe te Bhagwānnā bhaktane arthe chhe paṇ potānā sukhne arthe ekeya kriyā nathī. Ane Bhagwānnā je ekāntik bhakta hoy tenu je man te Bhagwānnā swarūpnu ja chintavan kare ane vāṇī te Bhagwānnā yashne ja gāy ane hāth te Bhagwān ke Bhagwānnā bhaktanī sevā-paricharyāne ja kare ane kān te akhanḍ Bhagwānnā yashne ja sāmbhaḷe; em Bhagwānnī bhakti jāṇīne je je kriyā karīe chhīe te thāy chhe, paṇ e Bhagwānnī bhakti vinā to ame sarva padārthmāthī udāsī chhīe. Jem koīk moṭo rājā hoy ne tene ek ja dīkaro hoy, ane te rājā sāṭhya-sitter varṣhno thāy ne pachhī teno dīkaro marī jāy, tyāre te rājānu man sarva padārthmāthī udās thaī jāy; tem amāre paṇ khātā, pītā, ghoḍe chaḍhatā, rājī-kurājīpaṇāmā sarve kāḷe man udāsī ja rahe chhe.

“Ane antarmā em vichār rahe chhe je, ‘Āpaṇ to deh thakī pṛuthak ātmā chhīe paṇ deh jevā nathī.’ Ane vaḷī antarmā em vichār rahyā kare chhe je, ātmāne viṣhe rakhe rajoguṇ, tamoguṇ ādik koīk māyāno bhāg bhaḷī jāy nahī! Tene ghaḍīe ghaḍīe tapāsatā rahīe chhīe. Jem sāḍā-soḷ-valu kanchan hoy ne tene sonīnī peḍhīe laī jāy ane jo dhaṇīnī lagārek najar chūke to sonī sonu kāḍhī laīne temā rūpu bheḷavī de. Tem ā hṛudayrūpī to sonīnī peḍhī chhe ane temā māyārūpī sonī chhe, te pote beṭho thako sankalprūpī je hathoḍo tenā akhanḍ ṭach-ṭach ṭachakā mārato rahe chhe. Ane jem sonīnā chhokarā-strī hoy te pārasī karīne tene hāth āve to kāīk sonu chorī jāy; tem indriyo-antahkaraṇ e sarve māyārūpe je sonī tenā chhokarā-strī chhe, te kanchanrūp je chaitanya tene viṣhe traṇ guṇ tathā panch-viṣhaymā āsakti tathā dehābhimān tathā kām, krodh, lobhādik e rūp je rūpu tene bheḷavīne gnān-vairāgyādik guṇrūp je sonu tene kāḍhī le chhe. Ane je sonāmāthī sonu kāḍhīne rūpu bheḷave to te sonu bār-valu thaī jāy chhe ane pachhī te sonāne tāvī tāvīne pāchhu soḷ-valu kare to thāy chhe. Tem ā jīvne viṣhe raj, tam ādik je rūpu bhaḷyu chhe, tene gāḷīne kāḍhī nākhavu ne pachhī kanchanrūp je ek ātmā te ja rahe paṇ bījo māyik bheg kāī rahe nahī. Evī rītnā vichārmā ame rāt-divas manḍyā chhīe. E ame amāru ang chhe te kahyu, have evī rīte jene je ang hoy te kaho.” Pachhī sant-manḍaḷe em kahyu je, “He Mahārāj! Tamāre viṣhe to māyik guṇno bheg hoy ja nahī, tame to kaivalyamūrti chho. Paṇ e je sarve tame vāt karī te to amārā angnī chhe ane tame kahyo je vichār te amāre sarvene rākhyo joīe.” Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj ‘Jay Sachchidānand’ kahīne potānā utārāne viṣhe padhāryā.

Samvat 1880na Jyeshth sudi 11 Ekadashine divas Swami Shri Sahajanandji Maharaj Shri Gadhada madhye Dada Khacharna darabarma ugamne dvar oradani osarie dholiya upar virajman hata ane mastak upar Navanagarnu soneri kore yukta shvet moliyu bandhyu hatu ane shvet pachhedi odhi hati ane shvet khes paheryo hato ane Shriji Maharajna mukharvindni agal Muni tatha desh-deshna haribhaktani sabha bharaine bethi hati ane te sabhane vishe Muni zanz-mrudang laine kirtan gavata hata.

Pachhi te Muni kirtan-bhakti kari rahya tyare Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Jenu aj jevu ang hoy tevu satsang thaya more pan kaik hoy kharu; te mate aj to sarve jenu jevu ang hoy te tevu kaho. Tema pratham to ame amaru jevu ang chhe tevi varta kahie chhie te sambhalo je, jyare amare bal avastha hati tyare pan dev-mandir hoy tya darshane javu, katha-varta sambhalavi, sadhuno samagam karavo, tirth karava javu evi varta gamati. Ane jyare ghar mukine nisarya tyare to vastra rakhavu pan gamatu nahi ane vanma ja rahevu gamatu. Ane bik to leshmatra lagati ja nahi ane vanne vishe mota mota sarp, sinha, hathi ityadik anant janavar dithama avya pan koi prakare haiyama maravani to bik ja lagati nahi; evi rite mahavanne vishe sada nirbhay raheta. Pachhi tirthne vishe farata farata Shri Ramanand Swami pase avya ane pachhi Shri Ramanand Swami jyare antardhan thaya te kede satsangnu rudu thavane arthe kaik bik rakhava mandi. Pan antarma akhand vichar evo rahe chhe, jem manushyane muvatane pathari upar suvaryo hoy tyare te manushyamathi sahune potana svarthni vasana tali jay chhe ane te maranarane pan sansar thaki man udas thai jay chhe; temanu tem amare potani kornu ane bijani kornu ant avastha jevu sada varte chhe. Ane jetalu mayik padarthmatra chhe te sarve nashvant ne tuchchha sarakhu janaya kare chhe, pan em vikti nathi janati je, ‘A saru padarth chhe ne a bhundu padarth chhe.’ Jetala mayik padarthmatra chhe te to sarve eksarakha janay chhe. Jem kakhana muvala chhe, tema saro kyo ne naraso kyo? Te to saro-naraso sahu ek padma chhe; tem mayik padarth pan sarve sarakha chhe. Ane kaik saru-narasu je kahie chhie te to Bhagwanna bhaktane saru lagadavane arthe kahie chhie je, a saru bhojan chhe, a saru vastra chhe, a saru gharenu chhe, a saru ghar chhe, a saru ghodu chhe, a sara pushpa chhe, te bhaktane saru lage te saru kahie chhie. Ane amari sarve kriya chhe te Bhagwanna bhaktane arthe chhe pan potana sukhne arthe ekeya kriya nathi. Ane Bhagwanna je ekantik bhakta hoy tenu je man te Bhagwanna swarupnu ja chintavan kare ane vani te Bhagwanna yashne ja gay ane hath te Bhagwan ke Bhagwanna bhaktani seva-paricharyane ja kare ane kan te akhand Bhagwanna yashne ja sambhale; em Bhagwanni bhakti janine je je kriya karie chhie te thay chhe, pan e Bhagwanni bhakti vina to ame sarva padarthmathi udasi chhie. Jem koik moto raja hoy ne tene ek ja dikaro hoy, ane te raja sathya-sitter varshno thay ne pachhi teno dikaro mari jay, tyare te rajanu man sarva padarthmathi udas thai jay; tem amare pan khata, pita, ghode chadhata, raji-kurajipanama sarve kale man udasi ja rahe chhe.

“Ane antarma em vichar rahe chhe je, ‘Apan to deh thaki pruthak atma chhie pan deh jeva nathi.’ Ane vali antarma em vichar rahya kare chhe je, atmane vishe rakhe rajogun, tamogun adik koik mayano bhag bhali jay nahi! Tene ghadie ghadie tapasata rahie chhie. Jem sada-sol-valu kanchan hoy ne tene sonini pedhie lai jay ane jo dhanini lagarek najar chuke to soni sonu kadhi laine tema rupu bhelavi de. Tem a hrudayrupi to sonini pedhi chhe ane tema mayarupi soni chhe, te pote betho thako sankalprupi je hathodo tena akhand tach-tach tachaka marato rahe chhe. Ane jem sonina chhokara-stri hoy te parasi karine tene hath ave to kaik sonu chori jay; tem indriyo-antahkaran e sarve mayarupe je soni tena chhokara-stri chhe, te kanchanrup je chaitanya tene vishe tran gun tatha panch-vishayma asakti tatha dehabhiman tatha kam, krodh, lobhadik e rup je rupu tene bhelavine gnan-vairagyadik gunrup je sonu tene kadhi le chhe. Ane je sonamathi sonu kadhine rupu bhelave to te sonu bar-valu thai jay chhe ane pachhi te sonane tavi tavine pachhu sol-valu kare to thay chhe. Tem a jivne vishe raj, tam adik je rupu bhalyu chhe, tene galine kadhi nakhavu ne pachhi kanchanrup je ek atma te ja rahe pan bijo mayik bheg kai rahe nahi. Evi ritna vicharma ame rat-divas mandya chhie. E ame amaru ang chhe te kahyu, have evi rite jene je ang hoy te kaho.” Pachhi sant-mandale em kahyu je, “He Maharaj! Tamare vishe to mayik gunno bheg hoy ja nahi, tame to kaivalyamurti chho. Pan e je sarve tame vat kari te to amara angni chhe ane tame kahyo je vichar te amare sarvene rakhyo joie.” Pachhi Shriji Maharaj ‘Jay Sachchidanand’ kahine potana utarane vishe padharya.