Gadhada I 73

Kām Jītyānu, Nirvāsanik Thayānu

Samvat 1876nā Chaitra vadi Amāsne divas rātrine same Swāmī Shrī Sahajānandjī Mahārāj Shrī Gaḍhaḍā madhye Dādā Khācharnā darabārmā potānā utārāne viṣhe uttarāde dvār oraḍānī osarīe virājmān hatā ane shvet khes paheryo hato ane shvet chādar oḍhī hatī tathā shvet fenṭo mastak upar bāndhyo hato ane potānā mukhārvindnī āgaḷ Muktānand Swāmī ādik moṭerā sādhu chār tathā pachāsne āshare haribhaktanī sabhā bharāīne beṭhī hatī.

Pachhī Gopāḷānand Swāmīe prashna pūchhyo je, “Kāmnu shu rūp chhe?” Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Vīrya e ja kāmnu rūp chhe.” Pachhī āshankā karī je, “Vīrya to sāt dhātu māhelo dhātu chhe,²⁹⁷ māṭe e ja kāmnu rūp kem kahevāy? Ane te vīryanī utpatti shāṇe karīne chhe?” Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Manovahā nāme nāḍīne viṣhe man rahyu chhe. Te manne viṣhe jyāre strī sambandhī sankalp thāy chhe tyāre jem dahī hoy te ravāīe karīne mathāy tyāre ghī hoy te sarva upar tarī āve chhe, tem strī sambandhī sankalpe karīne vīrya je te sharīrmāthī mathāīne manovahā nāḍīne viṣhe bheḷu thaīne shishnadvāre āve chhe. Ane jene vīrya shishnadvāre na āve te ūrdhvaretā puruṣh kahevāy ane te naiṣhṭhik brahmachārī kahevāy. Ane Shrī Kṛuṣhṇa Bhagwāne Rās-krīḍāne viṣhe strīono sang karīne paṇ vīryapāt thavā dīdho nahī,²⁹⁸ te māṭe ūrdhvaretā brahmachārī kahevāṇā ne kāmne jītyo. Māṭe vīrya te ja kāmnu rūp chhe, jeṇe vīryane jītīne vash rākhyu teṇe kāmne jītyo.”

Pachhī vaḷī Gopāḷānand Swāmīe pūchhyu je, “Jyāre e dehne bāḷī de chhe tyāre sapt dhātu deh bheḷā baḷī jāy chhe; māṭe jo vīrya ja kāmnu rūp hoy to deh bheḷe vīryane baḷave karīne kām paṇ baḷī gayo joīe, tyāre e jīv bījā dehmā jāy chhe tyāre kāmnā kem uday thāy chhe?” Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Sūkṣhma deh bheḷu vīrya rahe chhe. Te sūkṣhma dehne yoge karīne sthūḷ deh uday thaī āve chhe. Jem bhūt hoy te sūkṣhma deh-pradhān hoy, pachhī sūkṣhma dehmāthī sthūḷ dehne dharīne strīno sang kare chhe ane te strīne bhūt thakī bāḷak utpanna thāy chhe, māṭe sūkṣhma deh bheḷu ja vīrya rahe chhe.”

Pachhī vaḷī Gopāḷānand Swāmīe pūchhyu je, “Shivjī ūrdhvaretā hatā paṇ Mohinīrūpne joīne vīryapāt thayo.²⁹⁹ Tem jenā dehmā vīrya hoy ane tene jāgratmā athavā swapnamā strīno yog thāy tyāre vīryapāt thayā vinā rahe nahī, māṭe jyā sudhī dehmā vīrya hoy tyā sudhī niṣhkāmī kem kahevāy?” Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Shivjīne paṇ eṭalī yogkaḷāmā khoṭ kahevāy chhe. Ane jene jāgrat athavā swapnane yoge karīne strīnā sankalp thakī vīryapāt thāy to tene pāko brahmachārī kahevāy nahī. Māṭe ā sansārmā draḍh brahmacharyavāḷā to ek Narnārāyaṇ Ṛuṣhi chhe ane te Narnārāyaṇno āpaṇe āshray chhe, tenā pratāp thakī dhīre dhīre e Narnārāyaṇnu bhajan karīne āpaṇe paṇ e sarakhā ja niṣhkāmī thaīshu. Ane dehmā je vīrya rahe chhe tene bāḷī nākhavāne arthe yogī keṭalāk prakārnu jatan kare chhe, ane Shrī Kṛuṣhṇa Bhagwāne strīone sange rahīne naiṣhṭhik brahmacharya rākhyu, te evu sāmarthya to Bhagwānmā ja hoy paṇ bījāthī em rahevāy nahī. Māṭe bījā yogīne to jāgratmā athavā swapnamā strīno sankalp na thāy evu jatan karavu.”

Pachhī Shukmunie pūchhyu je, “Dvārikāmā soḷ hajār ekaso ne āṭh je Bhagwānnī strīo hatī temā ek ek strīne viṣhe das das putra ane ek ek putrī thaī³⁰⁰ em paṇ kahyu chhe, tenu kem samajavu?” Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Dvārikāī vāt bījī chhe ane Vrajnī bījī chhe. Dvārikāmā to Bhagwān sānkhyamatne āsharyā hatā. Te sānkhyamatvāḷo hoy te deh, indriyo, man e sarva thakī potānu swarūp bhinna samaje ane sarva kriyāne karato thako potāne akartā samaje ne te kriyāe karīne harṣh-shokne pāme nahī, e matne Bhagwān āsharyā hatā; māṭe Bhagwānne nirlep kahyā. Ane Bhagwān Dvārikāmā je sānkhyamatne āsharyā hatā, te mat to Janak jevā rājāono chhe. Je rājā gṛuhasthāshrammā rahīne Prabhune bhaje te ja sānkhyamatne anusare; em Bhagwān paṇ gṛuhasthāshrammā hatā ane Dvārikānā rājā kahevātā hatā, māṭe sānkhyamatne anusaryā thakā em nirlep hatā. Ane Vṛundāvanne viṣhe to yogkaḷāne āsharyā hatā te strīono sang karīne paṇ naiṣhṭhik brahmacharya vrat rākhyu, e ṭhekāṇe to potāne viṣhe Narnārāyaṇ Ṛuṣhipaṇu dekhāḍyu. Te Shrīmad Bhāgwatmā Kapildeve Devhūti pratye kahyu chhe je, ‘Strīrūp je mārī māyā tene jītavāne arthe Narnārāyaṇ Ṛuṣhi vinā bījo koī samarth nathī,’³⁰¹ māṭe Shrī Kṛuṣhṇa Bhagwāne strīone sange rahīne kāmne jītyo. Ane jyāre Durvāsā Ṛuṣhi āvyā tyāre Bhagwāne sarve Gopīone annanā thāḷ bharāvīne mokalvā mānḍī, tyāre Gopīo bolī je, ‘Ame Yamunājī kem ūtarīshu?’ Pachhī Shrī Kṛuṣhṇa Bhagwāne kahyu je, ‘Yamunājīne em kahejyo je, jo Shrī Kṛuṣhṇa sadā bāḷ-brahmachārī hoy to amane māg dejyo.’ Pachhī Gopīoe em kahyu tyāre Yamunājīe māg dīdho. Pachhī sarve Gopīo Ṛuṣhine jamāḍīne boliyo je, ‘Amāre āḍā Yamunājī chhe, te ame gher kem karīne jaīshu?’ Pachhī Ṛuṣhie kahyu je, ‘Kem karīne āvyā hatā?’ Pachhī Gopīoe kahyu je, ‘Ame Yamunājīne em kahyu je, Shrī Kṛuṣhṇa sadā brahmachārī hoy to māg dejyo, eṭale Yamunājīe māg dīdho; paṇ have kem karīne gher jaīe?’ Pachhī Durvāsā Ṛuṣhi bolyā je, ‘Yamunājīne em kahejo je, Durvāsā Ṛuṣhi sadā upavāsī hoy to māg dejyo.’ Pachhī Gopīoe em kahyu tyāre Yamunājīe māg dīdho. Tyāre Gopīonā manne viṣhe ati āshcharya thayu, paṇ Bhagwānno tathā te Ṛuṣhino je mahimā tene na jāṇī shakatī havī.³⁰² Ane Bhagwān to naiṣhṭhik vrat rākhīne Gopīone sange ramyā hatā māṭe brahmachārī hatā, ane Durvāsā Ṛuṣhi to Vishvātmā je Shrī Kṛuṣhṇa Bhagwān tene viṣhe potānā ātmāne ek karīne sarve Gopīonā thāḷ jamī gayā māṭe Ṛuṣhi paṇ upavāsī ja hatā ane anna to sarve Bhagwānne jamāḍyu hatu, māṭe evā ati moṭā hoy tenī kriyā kaḷyāmā āve nahī. Ane sānkhyavāḷāne khoḷīe to hajāro jaḍe, paṇ yogkaḷāe karīne ūrdhvaretā hoy evā to ek Narnārāyaṇ ja chhe, athavā je Narnārāyaṇnā ananya bhakta hoy te paṇ tenā bhajanne pratāpe karīne draḍh brahmacharyavāḷā thāy chhe, paṇ bījāthī thavātu nathī. Ane jene indriya dvāre karīne jāgrat athavā swapnamā vīryano pāt thāy chhe te brahmachārī kahevāy nahī. Ane je strīno aṣhṭprakāre tyāg rākhe chhe te to brahmacharyane mārge chālyo chhe, te have Narnārāyaṇne pratāpe karīne dhīre dhīre draḍh brahmachārī thashe. Ane jyāre ame nānā hatā tyāre em sāmbhaḷyu hatu je, ‘Vīrya to parsevā dvāre karīne paṇ nīkaḷī jāy chhe.’ Pachhī te vīryane ūrdhva rākhavāne sāru ame be prakārnī jaḷbasti³⁰³ shīkhyā hatā ane kunjarkriyā³⁰⁴ shīkhyā hatā, ane kāmne jītyā sāru keṭalāk āsan shīkhyā hatā ane rātrie sūtā tyāre gorakh āsan³⁰⁵ karīne sūtā; jeṇe karīne swapnamā paṇ vīryano pāt thavā pāme nahī. Pachhī te kām jītyānu evu sādhan karyu je, sharīrmāthī parsevo ja nīkaḷe nahī ane ṭāḍh-taḍako paṇ lāge nahī. Pachhī ame Rāmānand Swāmī pāse āvyā tyāre Swāmīe parsevo vaḷyā sāru badhe sharīre āvaḷnā pāṭā bandhāvyā hatā, to paṇ sharīrmā parsevo āvyo nahī. Māṭe kām jītyānu sādhan to sauthī ghaṇu kaṭhaṇ chhe. E to jene Bhagwānnā swarūpnī upāsanānu draḍh baḷ hoy ane atishay panch-viṣhaymāthī nirvāsanik thayo hoy ane te nirvāsanikpaṇānī atishay gānṭh bandhāṇī hoy, to te puruṣh Bhagwānne pratāpe karīne niṣhkāmī thāy chhe.”

Pachhī Nityānand Swāmīe pūchhyu je, “Nirvāsanik thayānu kāraṇ te āvī vāt sāmbhaḷavī te chhe ke vairāgya chhe?” Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Vairāgya to ekalo ṭakī shake nahī, ante jato nāsh thaī jāy chhe. Ane jyāre ātmaniṣhṭhā hoy ane Bhagwānnī mūrtinu yathārth gnān hoy, pachhī em vichāre je, ‘Hu to ātmā chhu, Sachchidānandrūp chhu ane pinḍ-brahmānḍ to māyik chhe ne nāshvant chhe. Māṭe hu kyā? Ne e pinḍ-brahmānḍ kyā? Ane mārā iṣhṭadev je Puruṣhottam Bhagwān te to anant koṭi brahmānḍnā ādhār je Akṣhar te thakī paṇ par chhe. Te Bhagwānno māre draḍh āsharo thayo chhe.’ Evā vichārmāthī je vairāgya uday thāy te vairāgya gnāne yukta kahevāy ne e vairāgyano koī kāḷe nāsh thāy nahī. Jem agni baḷato hoy tene māthe jaḷ paḍe to olāī jāy ane vaḍvānaḷ agni samudrane viṣhe chhe te jaḷno olāvyo olāto nathī; tem je gnāne yukta vairāgya chhe te to vaḍvānaḷ agni tathā vījaḷīno agni tevo chhe, te koī kāḷe olāy nahī ane te vinā bījā vairāgyano to vishvās āve nahī. Ane amāro je vairāgya te to jevo vījaḷīno agni tathā vaḍvānaḷ agni te sarakho chhe. Te amārā swabhāvne to je atishay amāre bheḷā rahyā hashe te jāṇe chhe ane je chheṭe rahe chhe tene amāro swabhāv jāṇyāmā āvato nathī. Ane ā Mukund Brahmachārī chhe te bhoḷā jevā jaṇāy chhe to paṇ amārā swabhāvne yathārth jāṇe chhe je, ‘Mahārāj to ākāsh jevā nirlep chhe ane emane koī potānu paṇ nathī ane pāraku paṇ nathī.’ Ane evī rīte jo amārā swabhāvne jāṇe chhe to jevā īshvarmā guṇ hoy tevā guṇ Brahmachārīmā varte chhe ane antaryāmī saumā rahyā chhe te bāī-bhāīne manmā em samajāve chhe je, ‘Brahmachārīmā koī vātnī khoṭya nathī.’ Te evā rūḍā guṇ āvyānu kāraṇ e chhe je, Moṭā Puruṣhne viṣhe je nirdoṣhbuddhi rākhe chhe te pote sarva doṣh thakī rahit thāy chhe ane je Moṭā Puruṣhne viṣhe doṣh paraṭhe chhe te doṣhnā paraṭhnārānī buddhi bhraṣhṭ thaī jāy chhe ane kāmādik je shatru te sarve tenā haiyāmā āvīne nivās kare chhe. Pachhī e satpuruṣhne viṣhe doṣhbuddhino paraṭhnāro je puruṣh tenā haiyāmā bhūnḍā bhūnḍā ghāṭ paṇ pīḍyā kare chhe ane e satsang kare chhe toy paṇ dukhiyo maṭe nahī. Ane je buddhimān chhe te to amāre samīpe rahīne amārī sarve prakṛutine jāṇe chhe je, ‘Jeṭalā sansārmā moh upjāvavānā padārth dhan, strī, alankārādik tathā khān-pānādik chhe te koīmā Mahārājne het nathī ane Mahārāj to sarva thakī udāsī chhe ane koīkne dayā karīne pāse besavā de chhe ke gnānvārtā kare chhe te to kevaḷ tenā jīvnā kalyāṇne arthe dayā karīne kare chhe.’ Ane je mūrkh hoy te to pāse rahe toy paṇ amārā swabhāvne em na jāṇe ane chheṭe rahe te paṇ em na jāṇe.

“Ane ā vāt samajāy paṇ tene, jene ātmaniṣhṭhā hoy ane te ātmāne viṣhe Parameshvarnī mūrtine dhārīne tenī bhakti karato hoy ane pote brahmarūp thaī gayo hoy toy paṇ Bhagwānnī upāsanāno tyāg kare nahī. Māṭe ātmaniṣhṭhā ane Bhagwānnī mūrtino mahimā samajyā thakī koī padārthne viṣhe vāsanā rahetī nathī. Ane vāsanā ṭaḷyā pachhī jevu potānā dehnu prārabdh hoy tevā sukh-dukhne bhogave kharo, paṇ indriyonī tīkṣhṇatā maṭī jāy chhe. Ane manomay chakranī je dhārā te to indriyo chhe, te jyāre Brahma ane tethī par je Parabrahma tenu sākṣhāt darshan thāy chhe tyāre buṭhṭhiyo thaī jāy chhe. Pachhī jem koī puruṣhe līmbu chūsyā hoy ne dānt atishay ambāī gayā hoy ne pachhī tene chaṇā chāvavā paḍe tyāre tethī koī rīte chavāy nahī ane atishay bhūkhyo thayo hoy to te chaṇāne gaḷī jāy paṇ chavāy nahī, tem jeṇe ātmāno ne Bhagwānno yathārth mahimā jāṇyo chhe tene koī loknā viṣhaysukhne viṣhe ānand thāy nahī. Ane dehnu prārabdh hoy tyā sudhī khān-pānādik sarve bhog bhogave kharo paṇ jem dānt ambāī gayā hoy ne chaṇā ākhā gaḷī jāy em bhogave. Ane vāsanā ṭaḷavī e paṇ kām atishay bhāre chhe, vāsanā to samādhiniṣhṭh thāy to paṇ rahī jāy chhe. Ane samādhi thayā keḍe to Brahmanā swarūpmāthī dehmā koī rīte avātu nathī ane jo avāy chhe to tenā traṇ hetu chhe: temā ek to jo kāī sansārnā sukhnī vāsanā hoy to samādhimāthī pāchho dehmā āve ane kā to ati samarth hoy te samādhimā jāy ne potānī ichchhāe pāchho dehmā āve ane kā to koīk potā thakī ati samarth hoy te pāchho samādhimāthī dehmā lāve - e traṇ prakāre samādhimāthī pāchho dehmā āve chhe. Ane jyāre samādhi thāy chhe ane temā Brahmanu darshan thāy chhe tyāre koṭi koṭi sūrya sarakho Brahmano prakāsh dekhīne jo thoḍī samajaṇ hoy to pratyakṣh Puruṣhottam Bhagwānnī je mūrti chhe tene viṣhe nyūnpaṇu samaje ane Brahmamā adhikpaṇu mānī le, eṭale upāsanāno bhang thayo. Māṭe pratyakṣh mūrtine viṣhe ati draḍh nishchay thayo joīe, to sarve kām sare. Ane ame paṇ em draḍh nishchay karyo chhe je, koī amane sācho thaīne man arpe ane leshmātra antarāy rākhe nahī to temā ame koī vātnī kasar rahevā daīe nahī.”

Pachhī Muktānand Swāmīe pūchhyu je, “Jeṇe man dīdhu hoy tenā kevā lakṣhaṇ hoy ane man na dīdhu hoy tenā kevā lakṣhaṇ hoy?” Pachhī Shrījī Mahārāj bolyā je, “Jeṇe man arpaṇ karyu hoy tene jo Parameshvarnī vāt thatī hoy tathā Parameshvarnā darshan thatā hoy ane te same jo pote na hoy to tenī atishay potānā haiyāmā dāz thāy; ane jyāre Bhagwānnī vāt sāmbhaḷe tathā Bhagwānnā darshan kare tene viṣhe adhik adhik prīti thatī jāy, paṇ temāthī man pāchhu haṭhe nahī. Ane Parameshvar jyāre koīkne pardesh mūkyānī āgnā karatā hoy, tyāre jeṇe man arpyu hoy tenā manmā em thāy je, ‘Jo mane āgnā kare to Barānpur tathā Kāshī jyā mūke tyā rājī thako jau.’ Evī rīte Parameshvarnā gamatāmā rahīne je rājī raheto hoy te to hajār gāu gayo hoy toy amāre pāse chhe, ane jeṇe evī rīte man na arpyu hoy ane te atishay amārī samīpe raheto hoy toy lākho gāu chheṭe chhe. Ane jeṇe amane man na arpyu hoy tene to updesh karatā paṇ bīk lāge je, shu jāṇīe? Savaḷu samajashe ke avaḷu samajashe? Evī rīte man arpyu hoy ne na arpyu hoy tenā lakṣhaṇ chhe.”

Samvat 1876na Chaitra vadi Amasne divas ratrine same Swami Shri Sahajanandji Maharaj Shri Gadhada madhye Dada Khacharna darabarma potana utarane vishe uttarade dvar oradani osarie virajman hata ane shvet khes paheryo hato ane shvet chadar odhi hati tatha shvet fento mastak upar bandhyo hato ane potana mukharvindni agal Muktanand Swami adik motera sadhu char tatha pachasne ashare haribhaktani sabha bharaine bethi hati.

Pachhi Gopalanand Swamie prashna puchhyo je, “Kamnu shu rup chhe?” Pachhi Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Virya e ja kamnu rup chhe.” Pachhi ashanka kari je, “Virya to sat dhatu mahelo dhatu chhe,²⁹⁷ mate e ja kamnu rup kem kahevay? Ane te viryani utpatti shane karine chhe?” Pachhi Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Manovaha name nadine vishe man rahyu chhe. Te manne vishe jyare stri sambandhi sankalp thay chhe tyare jem dahi hoy te ravaie karine mathay tyare ghi hoy te sarva upar tari ave chhe, tem stri sambandhi sankalpe karine virya je te sharirmathi mathaine manovaha nadine vishe bhelu thaine shishnadvare ave chhe. Ane jene virya shishnadvare na ave te urdhvareta purush kahevay ane te naishthik brahmachari kahevay. Ane Shri Krushna Bhagwane Ras-kridane vishe striono sang karine pan viryapat thava didho nahi,²⁹⁸ te mate urdhvareta brahmachari kahevana ne kamne jityo. Mate virya te ja kamnu rup chhe, jene viryane jitine vash rakhyu tene kamne jityo.”

Pachhi vali Gopalanand Swamie puchhyu je, “Jyare e dehne bali de chhe tyare sapt dhatu deh bhela bali jay chhe; mate jo virya ja kamnu rup hoy to deh bhele viryane balave karine kam pan bali gayo joie, tyare e jiv bija dehma jay chhe tyare kamna kem uday thay chhe?” Pachhi Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Sukshma deh bhelu virya rahe chhe. Te sukshma dehne yoge karine sthul deh uday thai ave chhe. Jem bhut hoy te sukshma deh-pradhan hoy, pachhi sukshma dehmathi sthul dehne dharine strino sang kare chhe ane te strine bhut thaki balak utpanna thay chhe, mate sukshma deh bhelu ja virya rahe chhe.”

Pachhi vali Gopalanand Swamie puchhyu je, “Shivji urdhvareta hata pan Mohinirupne joine viryapat thayo.²⁹⁹ Tem jena dehma virya hoy ane tene jagratma athava swapnama strino yog thay tyare viryapat thaya vina rahe nahi, mate jya sudhi dehma virya hoy tya sudhi nishkami kem kahevay?” Pachhi Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Shivjine pan etali yogkalama khot kahevay chhe. Ane jene jagrat athava swapnane yoge karine strina sankalp thaki viryapat thay to tene pako brahmachari kahevay nahi. Mate a sansarma dradh brahmacharyavala to ek Narnarayan Rushi chhe ane te Narnarayanno apane ashray chhe, tena pratap thaki dhire dhire e Narnarayannu bhajan karine apane pan e sarakha ja nishkami thaishu. Ane dehma je virya rahe chhe tene bali nakhavane arthe yogi ketalak prakarnu jatan kare chhe, ane Shri Krushna Bhagwane strione sange rahine naishthik brahmacharya rakhyu, te evu samarthya to Bhagwanma ja hoy pan bijathi em rahevay nahi. Mate bija yogine to jagratma athava swapnama strino sankalp na thay evu jatan karavu.”

Pachhi Shukmunie puchhyu je, “Dvarikama sol hajar ekaso ne ath je Bhagwanni strio hati tema ek ek strine vishe das das putra ane ek ek putri thai³⁰⁰ em pan kahyu chhe, tenu kem samajavu?” Pachhi Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Dvarikai vat biji chhe ane Vrajni biji chhe. Dvarikama to Bhagwan sankhyamatne asharya hata. Te sankhyamatvalo hoy te deh, indriyo, man e sarva thaki potanu swarup bhinna samaje ane sarva kriyane karato thako potane akarta samaje ne te kriyae karine harsh-shokne pame nahi, e matne Bhagwan asharya hata; mate Bhagwanne nirlep kahya. Ane Bhagwan Dvarikama je sankhyamatne asharya hata, te mat to Janak jeva rajaono chhe. Je raja gruhasthashramma rahine Prabhune bhaje te ja sankhyamatne anusare; em Bhagwan pan gruhasthashramma hata ane Dvarikana raja kahevata hata, mate sankhyamatne anusarya thaka em nirlep hata. Ane Vrundavanne vishe to yogkalane asharya hata te striono sang karine pan naishthik brahmacharya vrat rakhyu, e thekane to potane vishe Narnarayan Rushipanu dekhadyu. Te Shrimad Bhagwatma Kapildeve Devhuti pratye kahyu chhe je, ‘Strirup je mari maya tene jitavane arthe Narnarayan Rushi vina bijo koi samarth nathi,’³⁰¹ mate Shri Krushna Bhagwane strione sange rahine kamne jityo. Ane jyare Durvasa Rushi avya tyare Bhagwane sarve Gopione annana thal bharavine mokalva mandi, tyare Gopio boli je, ‘Ame Yamunaji kem utarishu?’ Pachhi Shri Krushna Bhagwane kahyu je, ‘Yamunajine em kahejyo je, jo Shri Krushna sada bal-brahmachari hoy to amane mag dejyo.’ Pachhi Gopioe em kahyu tyare Yamunajie mag didho. Pachhi sarve Gopio Rushine jamadine boliyo je, ‘Amare ada Yamunaji chhe, te ame gher kem karine jaishu?’ Pachhi Rushie kahyu je, ‘Kem karine avya hata?’ Pachhi Gopioe kahyu je, ‘Ame Yamunajine em kahyu je, Shri Krushna sada brahmachari hoy to mag dejyo, etale Yamunajie mag didho; pan have kem karine gher jaie?’ Pachhi Durvasa Rushi bolya je, ‘Yamunajine em kahejo je, Durvasa Rushi sada upavasi hoy to mag dejyo.’ Pachhi Gopioe em kahyu tyare Yamunajie mag didho. Tyare Gopiona manne vishe ati ashcharya thayu, pan Bhagwanno tatha te Rushino je mahima tene na jani shakati havi.³⁰² Ane Bhagwan to naishthik vrat rakhine Gopione sange ramya hata mate brahmachari hata, ane Durvasa Rushi to Vishvatma je Shri Krushna Bhagwan tene vishe potana atmane ek karine sarve Gopiona thal jami gaya mate Rushi pan upavasi ja hata ane anna to sarve Bhagwanne jamadyu hatu, mate eva ati mota hoy teni kriya kalyama ave nahi. Ane sankhyavalane kholie to hajaro jade, pan yogkalae karine urdhvareta hoy eva to ek Narnarayan ja chhe, athava je Narnarayanna ananya bhakta hoy te pan tena bhajanne pratape karine dradh brahmacharyavala thay chhe, pan bijathi thavatu nathi. Ane jene indriya dvare karine jagrat athava swapnama viryano pat thay chhe te brahmachari kahevay nahi. Ane je strino ashtprakare tyag rakhe chhe te to brahmacharyane marge chalyo chhe, te have Narnarayanne pratape karine dhire dhire dradh brahmachari thashe. Ane jyare ame nana hata tyare em sambhalyu hatu je, ‘Virya to parseva dvare karine pan nikali jay chhe.’ Pachhi te viryane urdhva rakhavane saru ame be prakarni jalbasti³⁰³ shikhya hata ane kunjarkriya³⁰⁴ shikhya hata, ane kamne jitya saru ketalak asan shikhya hata ane ratrie suta tyare gorakh asan³⁰⁵ karine suta; jene karine swapnama pan viryano pat thava pame nahi. Pachhi te kam jityanu evu sadhan karyu je, sharirmathi parsevo ja nikale nahi ane tadh-tadako pan lage nahi. Pachhi ame Ramanand Swami pase avya tyare Swamie parsevo valya saru badhe sharire avalna pata bandhavya hata, to pan sharirma parsevo avyo nahi. Mate kam jityanu sadhan to sauthi ghanu kathan chhe. E to jene Bhagwanna swarupni upasananu dradh bal hoy ane atishay panch-vishaymathi nirvasanik thayo hoy ane te nirvasanikpanani atishay ganth bandhani hoy, to te purush Bhagwanne pratape karine nishkami thay chhe.”

Pachhi Nityanand Swamie puchhyu je, “Nirvasanik thayanu karan te avi vat sambhalavi te chhe ke vairagya chhe?” Pachhi Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Vairagya to ekalo taki shake nahi, ante jato nash thai jay chhe. Ane jyare atmanishtha hoy ane Bhagwanni murtinu yatharth gnan hoy, pachhi em vichare je, ‘Hu to atma chhu, Sachchidanandrup chhu ane pind-brahmand to mayik chhe ne nashvant chhe. Mate hu kya? Ne e pind-brahmand kya? Ane mara ishtadev je Purushottam Bhagwan te to anant koti brahmandna adhar je Akshar te thaki pan par chhe. Te Bhagwanno mare dradh asharo thayo chhe.’ Eva vicharmathi je vairagya uday thay te vairagya gnane yukta kahevay ne e vairagyano koi kale nash thay nahi. Jem agni balato hoy tene mathe jal pade to olai jay ane vadvanal agni samudrane vishe chhe te jalno olavyo olato nathi; tem je gnane yukta vairagya chhe te to vadvanal agni tatha vijalino agni tevo chhe, te koi kale olay nahi ane te vina bija vairagyano to vishvas ave nahi. Ane amaro je vairagya te to jevo vijalino agni tatha vadvanal agni te sarakho chhe. Te amara swabhavne to je atishay amare bhela rahya hashe te jane chhe ane je chhete rahe chhe tene amaro swabhav janyama avato nathi. Ane a Mukund Brahmachari chhe te bhola jeva janay chhe to pan amara swabhavne yatharth jane chhe je, ‘Maharaj to akash jeva nirlep chhe ane emane koi potanu pan nathi ane paraku pan nathi.’ Ane evi rite jo amara swabhavne jane chhe to jeva ishvarma gun hoy teva gun Brahmacharima varte chhe ane antaryami sauma rahya chhe te bai-bhaine manma em samajave chhe je, ‘Brahmacharima koi vatni khotya nathi.’ Te eva ruda gun avyanu karan e chhe je, Mota Purushne vishe je nirdoshbuddhi rakhe chhe te pote sarva dosh thaki rahit thay chhe ane je Mota Purushne vishe dosh parathe chhe te doshna parathnarani buddhi bhrasht thai jay chhe ane kamadik je shatru te sarve tena haiyama avine nivas kare chhe. Pachhi e satpurushne vishe doshbuddhino parathnaro je purush tena haiyama bhunda bhunda ghat pan pidya kare chhe ane e satsang kare chhe toy pan dukhiyo mate nahi. Ane je buddhiman chhe te to amare samipe rahine amari sarve prakrutine jane chhe je, ‘Jetala sansarma moh upjavavana padarth dhan, stri, alankaradik tatha khan-panadik chhe te koima Maharajne het nathi ane Maharaj to sarva thaki udasi chhe ane koikne daya karine pase besava de chhe ke gnanvarta kare chhe te to keval tena jivna kalyanne arthe daya karine kare chhe.’ Ane je murkh hoy te to pase rahe toy pan amara swabhavne em na jane ane chhete rahe te pan em na jane.

“Ane a vat samajay pan tene, jene atmanishtha hoy ane te atmane vishe Parameshvarni murtine dharine teni bhakti karato hoy ane pote brahmarup thai gayo hoy toy pan Bhagwanni upasanano tyag kare nahi. Mate atmanishtha ane Bhagwanni murtino mahima samajya thaki koi padarthne vishe vasana raheti nathi. Ane vasana talya pachhi jevu potana dehnu prarabdh hoy teva sukh-dukhne bhogave kharo, pan indriyoni tikshnata mati jay chhe. Ane manomay chakrani je dhara te to indriyo chhe, te jyare Brahma ane tethi par je Parabrahma tenu sakshat darshan thay chhe tyare buththiyo thai jay chhe. Pachhi jem koi purushe limbu chusya hoy ne dant atishay ambai gaya hoy ne pachhi tene chana chavava pade tyare tethi koi rite chavay nahi ane atishay bhukhyo thayo hoy to te chanane gali jay pan chavay nahi, tem jene atmano ne Bhagwanno yatharth mahima janyo chhe tene koi lokna vishaysukhne vishe anand thay nahi. Ane dehnu prarabdh hoy tya sudhi khan-panadik sarve bhog bhogave kharo pan jem dant ambai gaya hoy ne chana akha gali jay em bhogave. Ane vasana talavi e pan kam atishay bhare chhe, vasana to samadhinishth thay to pan rahi jay chhe. Ane samadhi thaya kede to Brahmana swarupmathi dehma koi rite avatu nathi ane jo avay chhe to tena tran hetu chhe: tema ek to jo kai sansarna sukhni vasana hoy to samadhimathi pachho dehma ave ane ka to ati samarth hoy te samadhima jay ne potani ichchhae pachho dehma ave ane ka to koik pota thaki ati samarth hoy te pachho samadhimathi dehma lave - e tran prakare samadhimathi pachho dehma ave chhe. Ane jyare samadhi thay chhe ane tema Brahmanu darshan thay chhe tyare koti koti surya sarakho Brahmano prakash dekhine jo thodi samajan hoy to pratyaksh Purushottam Bhagwanni je murti chhe tene vishe nyunpanu samaje ane Brahmama adhikpanu mani le, etale upasanano bhang thayo. Mate pratyaksh murtine vishe ati dradh nishchay thayo joie, to sarve kam sare. Ane ame pan em dradh nishchay karyo chhe je, koi amane sacho thaine man arpe ane leshmatra antaray rakhe nahi to tema ame koi vatni kasar raheva daie nahi.”

Pachhi Muktanand Swamie puchhyu je, “Jene man didhu hoy tena keva lakshan hoy ane man na didhu hoy tena keva lakshan hoy?” Pachhi Shriji Maharaj bolya je, “Jene man arpan karyu hoy tene jo Parameshvarni vat thati hoy tatha Parameshvarna darshan thata hoy ane te same jo pote na hoy to teni atishay potana haiyama daz thay; ane jyare Bhagwanni vat sambhale tatha Bhagwanna darshan kare tene vishe adhik adhik priti thati jay, pan temathi man pachhu hathe nahi. Ane Parameshvar jyare koikne pardesh mukyani agna karata hoy, tyare jene man arpyu hoy tena manma em thay je, ‘Jo mane agna kare to Baranpur tatha Kashi jya muke tya raji thako jau.’ Evi rite Parameshvarna gamatama rahine je raji raheto hoy te to hajar gau gayo hoy toy amare pase chhe, ane jene evi rite man na arpyu hoy ane te atishay amari samipe raheto hoy toy lakho gau chhete chhe. Ane jene amane man na arpyu hoy tene to updesh karata pan bik lage je, shu janie? Savalu samajashe ke avalu samajashe? Evi rite man arpyu hoy ne na arpyu hoy tena lakshan chhe.”

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